Saturday, June 16, 2012

Happy Father's Day Dad

For someone who meant so much
and loved by all he knew
who left behind a trail of tears
and precious memories too

We loved the sunshine in his smile
and kindness in his heart
but heaven saw that he was tired
 which meant we had to part

And now that it's his special day
dear angels, hear our prayer
please guard him with your gentle wings
and tend him with great care

For he was some wonderful
and words just can't convey
how much we wish that he was here
once more, with us today

Miss you more and more with each passing day.  Miss my daily text or emails, miss the Sunday at 4pm phone calls and miss having you there to share all my tragedies and triumphs.  You are missed and loved so very much.

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Resurfacing and Joining the World Again

It has been a really long time since I have felt like blogging.  These past few months have left me empty, not wanting to be out and about not wanting to create not wanting to clean   just blah.  Finally I am getting back to a more normal frame of mind.  I can actually get up and look forward to what the day may  bring. I am getting excited again about taking some classes and mingling with the world again.
So Colleen came in on Monday late afternoon.  Her trip to Germany had a change of plans and here she is in hot Arizona I might add.  She will be here at least 2 weeks so I set about signing us up for classes and making a few plans as my work schedule allows.  Friday I took the day off from work and we played all day.  Shopped till we dropped was a very true phrase.  Between the heat and all the shopping by the time we met Karen and Teah for dinner I was done just done!!!  Good thing Cornish Pasty has ice cold beer!!!!  We sat on the patio for dinner and a cool breeze, misters and fans cooled us off.  The food as usual was so good.  I think I have converted the girls to my favorite place.  Karen joined me in a Tangerine Beer so we were happy happy while Teah and Colleen drank their teas :)
A shopping expedition with Colleen is not complete without a stop at Merchant Square .  They were having big sales so I really lucked out.  Not only did we go once we came back and went through again!!!
Here is my finds and yes Colleen found tons of things as she flew through the store.

Laundry basket for my bathroom soon to be a different color painted with Annie Sloan Chalk paints that I picked up

 Found a booth with burlap creations  tons of burlap and I love anything burlap.  Limited myself to just two of her lovely things a burlap bag and the burlap table runner.  Now if I ever get my table cleared off the table runner will be beautiful on it.

 And my great idea that was not well thought through is this enamel top table.  Wanted it for my bathroom to use as a vanity  Yes I know not well planned out.  Don't think we can cut the hole in it to mount a sink we will see as my expert kids are thinking on it ha!!!  anyway it will receive a coat of paint to match the laundry basket that was going to hold the towels in the bathroom  In my mind it all comes together in reality not so much right now.

Saturday I was up early and ready to attend a small home workshop with Carol Wingert. "Betwinchie".  It was a great workshop in a small group setting.  Colleen as usual kept our table entertained with her tales and antics.  She came with all 64 of her squares completed.  I know huh.  Karen, Teah and I just shook our heads and smiled.  I really enjoyed the pace, the small group and the food.    OMG  Ashley again prepared the best of food including my favorite Mac and Cheese.

 Colleen and Nicole catching up
My Betwinchie board is almost done and I hope to finish it today but mundane tasks such as laundry, car washing, lawn raking, house cleaning are on the agenda first.  Looking forward to a new week with a new attitude.  I think I am finally over this slump.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Happy Birthday TJ

TJ Happy Birthday.  Hoping your day is celebrated exactly as you wish, a day off from work.
I am so very proud of you.  You are a caring son, a supportive brother and the most wonderful Uncle.  We all love you so very much.  Your twinkle of mischievous in your eye comes from your Grandfather and has already been passed to your Nephew Anthony.   You make every occasion so special full of laughter and joy.
Have a wonderful day
Love you Mom

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Happy Mother's Day Mom

If Roses grow in Heaven,  
Lord please pick a bunch for me,   
Place them in my Mother's arms  
and tell her they're from me.   
Tell her I love her and miss her,  
and when she turns to smile,   
place a kiss upon her cheek  
and hold her for awhile.   
Because remembering her is easy,  
I do it every day,   
but there's an ache within my heart  
that will never go away. 

Love and miss you Mom

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Happy Birthday Dad

Happy Birthday Dad.  We love and miss you so much.  Hard to believe you are not here.
I know Mom is now with you and you both will celebrating with all those family and friends surrounding you.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Final Goodbyes

It has been a gut wrenching sad and emotional two months for the Struchen's.
We have said our final goodbyes with many tears, laughter, sadness and breaking hearts.
Dad passed on Feb 25th and now Mom has joined him on March 10th.  We knew Mom was very ill but none of us expected that she would go so very quickly.
And now as my sister says we are orphans.  We are still family but right now without Dad and Mom to bring us and keep us all together as they had worked so hard to do all these years.
As I had written on Caring Bridge Dad was our hero, our mentor our DAD.  It is so hard to realize there are no more early am text messages or emails  no more 4pm Sunday phone calls.  There is a giant void in my heart
Mom seemed to think she always took a back seat to Dad.  But she was always there to help us, give us strength hold us to a higher standard.  "We Struchen women are tough" she used to tell me when I was needing a listening ear.  "You can do it!"
Mom was a true lady.  She knew manners better than all and she made sure that us kids knew them too.  She loved to entertain and always went the extra mile to ensure that everything was perfect from the meal, the table decorations to the after the meal entertainment.  She was wonderful at writing poems.  So wished she had saved them.  Mom also was an excellent seamstress, crafter and toile painter.  Her quiet dignified demeanor belied the strength she had.  After Dad had passed she leaned over and said to me I am ok.  I knew she wasn't but she had to reassure me. She lost the light in her eyes, her smile after Dad was gone and so 2 weeks after Dad she joined her love of 65 years. Mom,  your presence, your strength, your generosity, your love of your family, your devotion to Church and community will be greatly missed by not only your family but your community.
We love you both Mom and Dad and we pray you are together at peace and watching over your family.
We hope we can live up to your expectations and that we do you proud.

Monday, January 09, 2012

Diary of 5 Week 2

I am seeing..Dusk settling in for the evening

I am hearing..The nightly news

I am smelling...chicken baking in the oven

I tasted...Fresh pears

I am feeling... Discouraged with all that is going on in the family
Ya the daily documentation didn't quite make it so will attempt a weekly listing

Monday, January 02, 2012

Diary of 5 Day 1

I am seeing...Bright blue sunny skies

I am hearing...My neighbor mowing his lawn

I am smelling...the fresh cut grass

I tasted...Trader Joes balsamic vinaigrette on my salad

I am feeling... Tired after my bike ride

I decided to restart the Simple Woman's Day Book. It was a great exercise to list what was going around me on a daily or weekly basis. She has a new site Diary of 5 in conjunction with her original site. I think this will be so much easier to keep on top of and will help to make me aware of my surroundings and feelings.

Day 2 of new diet plan is going fairly well. I am craving Reece Peanut Butter Cups ha Good thing I had eaten them all yes every last christmas tree, bell and mini cups before I started this new me makeover!!! So I ate breakfast yuck hate breakfast unless it is at a restaurant and they have eggs, hash browns bacon pancakes waffles, well you get the idea. Water consumption is down today compared to yesterday and again yes I hate water, milk, Crystal Lite but I love coffee and Diet Pepsi so as I say not enough water yet. Forgot mid morning snack oops but had my salad with veggies and protein. Oh yeah I get an afternoon snack and another big salad with meat tonite Can hardly wait. On a positive note I have gone on a bike ride yesterday and today so that is good. I am sure I will be less grumpy :) as I get used to eating breakfast/smoothie and salads for lunch and dinner. And I am really positive that the hoped for outcome will be well worth the sacrifice so dramatic yes I know:)
Somehow putting it on my blog for the whole world to see makes me much more accountable and if the snack box would sell out of the Reece Peanut Butter Cups before I go to work tomorrow life would be ever so much better

Sunday, January 01, 2012

Welcoming 2012

Happy 2012 to my Family and Friends

Well it is time to say good bye to 2011 and welcome in 2012. Seems such a short time ago it was welcoming in 2011. As I look back to all that has happened this past year I still see so many positive uplifting things that sustained and carried me through the more recent stressful heart breaking times. Our family remains strong, faithful and blessed that even though there are some tough medical issues happening we are still all in the present.
I was so blessed to spend Christmas with TJ and Jen and her family. We welcomed a new guest this year Tal, John's twin brother joined us. A great time was had by all of us with many jokes played on poor Sadera and lots and lots of rivalry playing games.

I don't make yearly resolutions as I don't keep them, enough said. But I am starting this New Year with a positive attitude and a determination to lose this weight that is slowly creeping up on me. Probably the Reeces Peanut Butter Christmas Trees attributed to that greatly:) So to that end I have shopped for healthy food choices developed a plan with the help of my daughter who has lost weight and looks magnificent. I have new containers to keep food fresh and to easily take to work with me. I am resolved to getting back on my bike at least 3 times weekly and riding that canal again. Will see how this goes. I am determined to take better care of me, letting go of unhealthy relationships, choosing wisely what I choose to do with my free time, staying closely connected with friends and family. If anything this past year I have learned time is way to short and we need to surround ourselves with family and friends that lift us up, support us, accept us, and love us just for who we are.
Since my parents aren't on FB I am adding a few Christmas photos for them to see.

Off to a healthy happy 2012